A woman shares insights into her desire to masturbate in public.
Submitted by T. H. (28), United States
Who hasn't walked home at night or looked out the car window and seen someone doing something they shouldn't do in public? Even though society is opening up to the topic of masturbation, many are still uncomfortable talking about it. There are so many different preferences, but what about the forbidden ones?
It started in high school when I was taking the bus to school. It’s quite warm throughout the year, where I used to live, and my one year older neighbour girl, who I was taking the bus to school with, was wearing short skirts almost every day. As cool kids do, we usually sat in the last row. The bus was pretty empty most of the time except for some old ladies and young mothers with children in the front. One time, I noticed that my friend’s hand was under her skirt and she was touching herself but I felt so embarrassed by seeing this, I acted like I didn’t just watch my friend touching herself next to me. A few days later, the same thing happened again but this time it seemed like my friend wanted me to see it and when I did, she started stroking my tight. Her touch made me feel dazed and confused but I have to admit, I liked it. I’ve slept with one guy at that time but this was completely different. The whole day, my mind was wandering back to what happened and I skipped the last class to avoid being on the same bus as her.
She called me in the evening and asked me to come over to her place as she did many times before since we were friends and neighbours. Unlike all the previous times I was deadly nervous to go. Briefly summarized, we ended up having sex, or whatever you would call two teenage girls experimenting around that night.
The next day, I was a little bit scared but mostly excited about the bus ride. After sitting there the first few minutes, which felt like hours, she started stroking my tight again and shortly after her finger was inside me. We never had a romantic relationship. We were just two horny teenagers testing our limits. Toying around with each other became part of our morning and it just felt so normal. This whole thing went on until she finished high school one year later and headed off to college in another city.
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The first time riding the bus to school without her I wasn't particularly feeling sad but more dissatisfied. My whole body was filled with displeasure to the point where I started touching myself out of desperation. What can I say, it helped? From that day, one year, until my graduation, I pretty much made me cum every morning in the last bus row on my way to school.
Over ten years have passed but I still prefer masturbating in public, to doing it home alone. I guess I started doing it to overcome my loneliness on the bus but it ended being something big in my life. The rush, the fear of being caught is turning me on the most. Just knowing that it’s forbidden makes it so much more exciting for me. Cumming in a place surrounded by strangers who have no idea something this intimate is happening next to them is thrilling.
Doing it on the bus is still one of my favorites but I have done it in many, many different places over the years. A quite usual place for girls to do, I’ve found out, is the movies. For me personally it’s not very interesting but if you’re a girl who wants to try it, I guess it would be a good place to start. I prefer doing it in more public places like at the restaurant, in the changing room or in my parked car. Whenever I feel like it would be too obvious what I’m doing, I use a small vibrator instead of my hand. It’s a very practical and inconspicuous alternative where I can even be closely around others or have conversations while being stimulated.
The following is not fair but I guess this is the benefit of being a woman. To be honest, I can’t count the times I was caught on accident or even on purpose before, but not a single guy who caught me was upset or displeased with what he saw. Sometimes in crowded spaces, I like to rub my butt on strangers and based on their reaction I can see if they’re into it or not. If they are, I continue and test their limits. One time, it ended up with public bathroom sex. On one of my recent overnight bus rides, I was having some fun with myself, after ensuring everyone around me was busy or asleep when suddenly I felt a hand on my butt. I turned around and there was this young guy sitting behind me. His touch was turning me on so much, I continued fingering myself while he was playing with my ass.
To some past boyfriends, I have told my little dirty secret, depending on how comfortable I have felt with them. I’m in a happy relationship for more than two years and my boyfriend knows everything. First, he was sceptical but now he loves it. When we go out together I sometimes do it as a show for him. We love exploring new ideas and fantasies together.